Ok, everyone that has emailed me and I haven't been too quick to answer. I appologize. I have just been pretty busy for the last... oh say... year..., you know how it is. Sometimes, I don't like to reply for the simple fact that it is a privacy thang and I don't have to defend everything I do to strangers that don't even know me. But I am nothing like that Emmeke in the UK that bawled me out that time and said that I was a troll online instead of through email because I told her she was a hypercondriac and anti-social. I didn't say those words (even though I meant them), I said it alot nicer. I wasn't trying to hurt her feelings but encourage her to look for the good in her life. But enough said about that. Sometimes my readers email me and ask me things about my life. Sometimes, I don't mind answering and others I do. But this is a no holds bar'd entry so I have went through my emails for this journal and if you have asked me a question, I am about to answer it to your satifaction or mine at least. If your question is not posted, I no longer have your email. I have changed the names of my readers to protect their privacy, everyone should be able to identify their own questions however. Dear Ayrie, I miss all your ravings about Tristian. You don't talk about him much anymore. At least not like before. What gives? Addicted Alice Dear Addicted: I hadn't noticed that my Tristian updates were dewindling down but now that you have brought it to my attention... I guess your right. The only reason that seems to make sense is the fact that I started this journal a week before I got married. We were in love and so I talked about him constantly. Now that we have been married almost 3 1/2 years, I guess I have just settled into the idea of marriage and life and Tristian isn't mentioned every other word now. I will try to do better. Ayrie Dear Ayrrichelle, Brad, Brad, Brad! I know your married so what is the deal with Brad? You said you have been friends for years, but who is he really? What does he look like this illusive Brad? How did you meet? What has kept your friendship alive? I don't have any friendships that have lasted "years." You should feel very blessed. Girlfriend, I want details! A Curious Cat Dear Curious: Everyone wants to know about Brad. I been kinda mum's the word on Brad because I am afraid too many people want to see our friendship as anything other than innocent. So to respond is just asking for more inquiries. Now I regret the whole "no hold's barred" thing I said earlier. Ahhhhh, Brad. One of my favorite subjects... where to start. I guess at the beginning... Lets start off with: This is what Brad looks like. I hope he doesn't mind I am plastering his mug in my journal. I met Brad on a blind double date when I was 15. I knew he was special right from the start. We met up a few more times but never really dated long term. Brad and I both agreed that we were both just too shy to tell each other we wanted to see more of each other. (Awww isn't that cute.) Years passed and we went on with our lives but we never forgot each other. About eight years later we started talking again and it was like we never stopped being friends. It was awesome. We lived in different states at the time. Brad had gotten married then and his son was two seconds from being born. We had a chance to see each other again but that totally blew up in our faces and again we stopped talking. The whole thing was a complete misunderstanding on both our parts. Finally, last April, I had to know where he was and what he was doing so I tracked him down. I am very good at finding people. Brad was happy and relieved I didn't hate his guts. I was just glad we got to clear the air. We offered our truest appologies to each other for our parts in the "misunderstanding" and waved the white flag. By this time, I am married too but I never stopped missing Brad's friendship. Once we started talking again, no one could stop us. I know we talked straight for six months through email and phone conversations. He has quickly turned in to my closest friend. Of late Tristian has been a bit jealous of Brad, but I assured him that Brad and I are only friends. And we are. Brad has been talking about coming to see me soon so Tristian will get to meet Brad and all that silly jealousy stuff will just go away. I know what your thinking. That men and women can't just be friends, but I beg to differ. Brad and I are "just friends" everyday. Because we dated a little I guess there are some flirtiness between us but never for a moment think we would ever act on any impulses. We are both married, we respect each other and each other's marriages. Brad is too much of a southern gent to pull that crap with me and I am could never break my promise to God or Tristian if it was in my power. So get your mind out of the gutter. And there you have it in a nutshell, curious. Ayrie Dear Ayrie, How is the reuniting with Fionnah going? You haven't mentioned a thing. Abbie Dear Abbie: Fionnah is going through a lot of drama right now. She knows I am there for her if she ever needs me. Her house just recently burned down which totally sucks. She doesn't have a phone so I haven't really talked to her lately. We have emailed each other but just haven't gotten around to making plans together. We many just wait until her life settles down a little before getting together and rekindling our long lost friendship. It is worth it to me and I am not going anywhere. Ayrie Dear Ayrie, Am I the "ex-bf" in your Never Again entry? N Dear N: No, you are not the "ex-bf" in my Never Again entry. Yes, I did put alot into the relationship we had together but I never fell hard for you like I did this guy. Plus, you cheated on me...CHEATER! Please refrain from emailing me again. Ayrie P. S. I don't know how you got my journal address but lose it... pronto. Dear Ayrrichelle (if that is your real name), I think your journal/blog is a farce. It sounds like you make the whole thing up. This can't be your life. Skeptical Dear Skeptical: I too sometimes can't believe it is my own life, but there it is... staring me in the face every morning. Nothing is made up in my "journal/blog" . The names have been changed to protect the innocent but everything is the honest to goodness truth. Ayrie Dear Ayrrichelle, Your new cut is amazing! You look so sassy. Tristian must be a very lucky man indeed. You said that you donated your hair to Lots of Love. I can't find it anywhere online, can you help? Gayle Dear Gayle: It's Locks of Love not Lots of Love. Here is the web addy: http:// www.locksoflove.org Hope this helps and thanks for the lovely comments. Ayrie Dear Ayrie, You should name all your ex-bf's instead of just saying "ex-bf" I am getting too confused about who is who. Let me help you- Ex-bf #1, Ex-bf#2, Ex-bf#3, get my point? Exactly how many guys have you dated anyways? Were any of them serious? Also, you stopped talking about Travis? Did he die? A Enquiring Mind Dear Mind: I guess I do sometimes make it unclear about which ex I am talking about but one can be illusive if they don't meantion names and no one's feelings get hurt. I only have shared my journal with one ex and if any other ones find it then it truly isn't my fault if they read something here that annoys the heck out of them. I am sure it has to do with reasons of why they are ex's after all. But I will try not to confuse anyone as best I can. To answer your question, I probably have dated about 35-40 guys in my time. Only 4 were serious. So is that like a 1 to 10 ratio? Now Travis, that is a good question. I guess we just lost touch after his second baby was born. Which sucks. Travis was cool, his wife the nicest person, and their babies the cutest things. If he wants to talk to me... he knows how to find me. Ayrie Dear Ayrrichelle, Is it true you met your husband online in a chat room? Which room was it? Yahoo? Looking Dear Looking: Yeah, I met my husband online. It was embarrasing to admit then but now we are fine with it because everyone does it. It is like the new craze or some junk. We met under a chat specifically for my state of Alabama. I just typed in " +Alabama +chat" and there I was ushered into ALchat. I bet your state has one too. I have dated other guys from other sites from my town on Yahoo too but they are harder to find. Of course, I haven't dated anyone since Tristian and I became officially bf & gf in August of '99 so I am not up to date on that kind of dating scene now. Tristian's user name was "princecharming" how could I resist. Ayrie That is enough from my mail bag for now. If you have more questions, please don't hesitate to send them to me at: belovedaboveall@yahoo.com

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